Crashing Down


"NO! No its not POSSBILE! Just not Possible. It's a hoax or may be some rumour."
            He reacted as soon as he put the phone down; but yes it was true the stock market had collapsed as soon as Lehman Brothers filed bankruptcy.
            His heart sank, legs weakened, pulling a chair he sat; his face deeply buried in his palms.                   "How could this be? How the hell did it happen? All my shares, all my investments, all the loans.. all gulped in one blow! The shares' projections were soaring high, they were suppose to boom by this time. How could it be then? No it's not possible."

            Still trying to absorb the news, he exclaimed,                                                      
"Why my shares only? Why this time of year? Is it a game destiny is playing on me because if it is then I am in no mood for such games!"

            "Curse you. Curse you all for such a filthy game you have played. I am left at the mercy of no one, not even God. O! What a trick you played on me God. Why was it bad to invest in such promising shares, return so high, growth was good, time golden and moment opportune, they would have earned me a fortune in no time. But Alas! This is what I get in return with all my trust, with savings and investments of hefty loans. Why? Was it wrong to put all the cargos in one boat when sea looked so calm? And now.. this storm! Were my ambitions too bad for destiny to swallow leaving me in such dire straits."

            His loudness and grimness made him a hostile creature in the office hall. Out bursting with anger, grasping for his breath, as if all the air in hall had ceased to ventilate the suffocation inside him, he took-off from the office.

            Soft drizzling droplets of rain could not soothe but only increased his bitterness and gloom, lighting a cigarette he  paced aimlessly on the streets trying to console himself.
            "May be its just temporary and won't last long, or may be a trick by the company to attract more investors. Whatever it be, let it be everything but the truth. What am I to do now? How am I suppose to pay the creditors? When it comes to money nobody is nobody's friend. Failing to pay the sum means losing both my present as well as ancestral house and emptying all my savings ... Only if the clock of time can unwind and I could undo."
            Weaving infinite networks of his walk, hoping to look for a sign that can unburden him with the crisis; a simple turn that can turn the false into truth; the only refuge he found- both from the rain now pouring heavy as well as his situation- which he barged in as soon as he saw, was a bar.
            "What am I gonna do now? How am I going to break this news at home? A man is known by his profession and affluence, and me a Broke!" 
            All the thoughts, like walk,  drained him, "Bottle of Jolly Roger." He ordered as he slipped in a chair.
            "A Broke," gulping his first peg, "I am so sorry my darling daughter, I haven't got any penny no more to see you through Oxford. Your London dreams just got squashed!'
            Sipping down the rum and his sorrow he muttered again,                                                           "I am sorry my love, our home, soon, will no longer be ours. Papa it seems you're on our own to deal with your condition, 'coz I can't afford your dialysis anymore. I am sorry, I am so so sorry to all of you, my stupid decisions have brought you on street."
            With each thought the concentration of alcohol in his blood increased, finally when there was no more left, he uttered,
"Even the wine leaves the broke!" and rose to  take leave.

            It was not just for the spirit but also the emotional upheaval that made his walk anything but straight. Burdened each foot, he paced slower with every step that brought him closer to his home. The rains had seized, night ready to unfold, sun escaping in the horizon, leaving the sky orange and red, birds retiring to their nest.

            He looked up to heavens and stood for a while, not thinking but thoughtful.

            He said, "Was it Money or was it Greed."

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